期望

我到底怎麼了
不想再向前走
就此作為終點好嗎
是消極嗎
是負面嗎
或許
就是這麼懦弱
但我嚮往的
就是如此
我到底怎麼了

Pieces Of Memory

I know i had forgotten about this blog for a long time, but i don't know why want to write something on it now..., something about my dream last night.
In that dream, i can remember i'm sitting on my bed, many people around me in the bedroom. I can see her..., just standing in front of me. I'm looking at her eyes, so beautiful as before, and she looking at me also. She is smiling, and seems waiting for me to say something. I clearly know many things want to say to her, unfortunately i can't say anything. After a while, she move out slowly from the crowd of people. My eyes never leave her face, and she stilling looking at me although she is leaving. Finally, my tears is out, because i still can't say anything in that dream, and i know i have many things must tell her. When i feel falling down to the deep of disappointed, she's come back. She is talking to me, i can her her voice clearly even in the crowd of people.
"Keep it in your heart", she said.
She is stand there for while, and saying the same thing again to me.
I don't know the meaning about my rely, "Thank you." And i can't understand why i can speak suddenly.
She give me a smile when hear me, then she is gone.

I wake up from my dream, but many memory come out from my brain, all of thing between us, me...and that girl.
Actually, it's a strange dream. I can't understand why she was appeared in my dream. I had forgotten about that girl in my real life, because she is gone, and i know we will never meet again.


Why she told me "Keep it in your heart.", i wanna know the meaning of "it", and i wanna know why i said "Thank you" to her.
Umm...
I got it maybe...

天空

天空又佈滿了盛放著的黑雲
在這樣的日子
我大概又會回想起
比那些黑雲更糟糕的日子吧
雖然無比悲傷
但亦有它美麗的瞬間
我知道
這是人生的遊戲
未到遊戲的結束
還是不知道那些日子是否已經真正過去
坐在房間中的一角
凌亂的思索
不然
又在看著這片天空
還有這片夜幕漸來的大地
彷彿互相呼喚著
那是哀怨的聲音嗎

那聲音不知不覺的消逝
那靜寂的夜空
沒有一絲迷茫地凝望著我
在嘲笑著嗎
因我又再一次這樣子看著它
從前
失落的時候
我就會傻呼呼地呆望著它
待著時間過去

這一片天
你看的是否又一樣

毛病

最近到過她的blog看過了她的留言
看了過後
想了幾天
最後也是忍不住要留言給她
證明大家都有著同一個毛病
就是犯賤
其實她的blog已經很久沒有更新
但我不知道為什麼經常也會去看看
要看什麼呢
想看什麼呢
經常重複地問自己這些問題
那當然
我這些是明知故問
其實心裡一直都有答案
只是自己不願去面對吧
硬是要裝一個理性的人
到最後
又是一大堆的放不下

不過
還是算了吧
想再多也不會有什麼改變
抽多一點時間出來找工作吧
大懶蟲

無恥

終於有機會踏進殯儀這個行業
過去一個星期
不斷在一般人忌諱著的地方進進出出
看見了很多走先一步的先人
看見了很多臉上充滿著悲傷的人們為先人送最後一程
所有的每一點每一滴
都是我朝思夢想多年的
為他們最後一程上盡點綿力
提供最適合的配套
令我覺得自己人生不是白活的
可是
在這些許多美麗的背後
只存在著一種東西
就是金錢
不論我的師傅或是師兄姐
表面上是多麼偉大的慈善家
嘴邊總是掛著無私的愛
做許多社區慈善活動
最終目的
亦只有一個
不斷擴大圈子
令更多更多的人知道我們來自殯儀業
有需要幫助的時候就找我們
我現在就是這樣的一個禮儀師
我覺得自己比一些明目張膽的罪犯更可恥
披著羊皮的狼
應該就是這個意思
要是一匹狼
為什麼要去充當一隻小綿羊
要形容我現在這一刻的心情
就只有兩個字
失望